Julia’s hands stayed steady on the steering wheel. She did not cry. The tears, for the moment, had burned themselves out in a locked bathroom stall with Rachel holding her while she shook.
Now, there was only a curious, echoing quiet inside her. The quiet of a house after a storm, when the walls are still standing but the furniture has been rearranged by wind and force.
At home, she carried Mia in from the car, feeling the familiar weight of her asleep against her shoulder. It hit her then, an almost physical blow: I will never let them near her again.
The thought was not an aspiration. It was a fact.
She laid Mia in her bed, tucked the blanket around her, smoothed damp hair from her forehead.
Mia’s eyes fluttered open, unfocused.
“Mama?” she whispered.
“I’m here,” Julia said.
“Did I… did I do something bad?” Mia asked, voice fragile as spun glass. “To Grandma? To Daddy?”
Julia’s chest ached. “No,” she said, with a conviction that surprised even her. “You didn’t do anything bad. You had an accident. That’s all. What Grandma did and what Daddy did—that was wrong. It wasn’t your fault. Do you hear me?”
Mia blinked, considering. “But Daddy hit you.”
“He did,” Julia said. “And that was very wrong, and I’m not going to let it happen again.”
“How?” Mia’s brows creased. Behind the question was the deeper one: You couldn’t stop him then. How can you stop him now?
Julia stroked her daughter’s hair. “Because I’m going to change things,” she said. “I called the police. I’m going to talk to a lawyer. We’re going to be safe.”
Mia’s eyes slowly closed again. “Okay,” she murmured. “If you say so.”
Julia sat on the edge of the bed until Mia’s breathing evened out and her hands relaxed their grip on the blanket. Then she stood, went into the bathroom, and looked at herself in the mirror.
Her cheek was swollen, a faint outline of fingers visible even under the spreading bruise. Her eyes looked older than she remembered them. There was a smear of something on her shoulder—gravy, maybe.
She washed her face, washed her shoulder. She couldn’t wash away the mark on her cheek.
She didn’t try.
Ten days later, she sat across from a woman in a navy suit in a tidy office that smelled faintly of coffee and printer ink.
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