“When you spoke at the school,” Obinna says, “your voice had changed a little from the injuries and time, but there was a rhythm to it. A carefulness. I knew.”
You want to accuse him of impossible things. Of theft. Of trespassing through the graveyard of your former self. Instead you ask the ugliest question because it is the one already clawing at your insides.
“And when you recognized me… were you disgusted?”
His face changes so suddenly it almost knocks the air from your lungs.
“No.”
The word is fierce, immediate, insulted.
“Did you pity me?”
“No.”
“Did you stay silent because you were curious what a damaged woman would do if she thought she was safe with a blind man?”
He stands now, slowly, as if approaching a frightened animal.
“I stayed silent,” he says, “because the first time you laughed with me, it sounded like you had forgotten to guard yourself. And I knew if I said your old name, you would put the walls back up so fast I’d never hear that sound again.”
Tears sting your eyes before you give them permission.
That is the problem with him. Even his worst truths arrive dressed in tenderness.
You hate that part most of all.
“You had no right,” you whisper.
“I know.”
“You should have told me the second you recognized me.”
“I know.”
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