I opened it slowly. Noah’s handwriting filled the pages — short notes, scattered thoughts, a list.
“Mia gets scared when the house is too quiet.” “Ben pretends he’s okay when he’s not.” “Lilian carries everything alone, even when she shouldn’t.”
I couldn’t speak.
“So the gifts…” I whispered.
Doug nodded. “Noah used to talk about you, about the kids, little things. I wasn’t sure how to make a grand entrance, so I began modestly.”
I thought back — the wildflowers, the toys, the cocoa. None of it was random.
Doug added, “I remembered the wildflowers. Noah mentioned them once. Said they were the only ones you loved.”
A broken laugh escaped me. That sounded exactly like Noah.
Suddenly, a shadow moved in the hallway.
“Ben?” I called.
He stepped into the porch light, eyes shifting between Doug and me.
I kept my voice steady. “How long have you known?”
Ben stared at the floor. “Since the first night. I heard something outside while getting water. I opened the door… and Doug was there. I didn’t mean to, Mom. I just thought—” He stopped.
Of course, he recognized Doug. He’d visited our home before.
“And you didn’t think to tell me?” I asked.
Ben shook his head. “I thought if I told you, the gifts would stop. Mia smiles when she sees them. She doesn’t cry as much about losing Dad.”
I exhaled slowly.
“So I made a deal with Doug, and he helped,” Ben whispered.
He led us to the fence, pulling out a small tin box hidden behind a loose panel. Inside were folded notes.
One read: “Mia likes dolls with blue dresses.” Another: “Mom used to drink cocoa at night.” A third: “Can you come later? Mom almost saw you yesterday.”
I looked at Doug, then at Ben.
Ben nodded. “I didn’t want it to stop because I don’t want you or Mia to be sad again.”
I knelt before him. “You don’t have to carry things like that.”
I hugged him tightly.
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