“Are we?”
He looked at me, his imposing figure somehow nonthreatening as he knelt beside the bookshelf. “Ellaner, I’ve been a slave all my life. I’ve worked grueling labor in heat that would kill most men. I’ve been whipped for my mistakes, sold and cast out by my family, treated like a voiced ox.” He gestured around the comfortable room. “Living here, caring for someone who treats me like a human, having access to books and conversation… This isn’t suffering.”
“But you’re still a slave.”
“Yes, but I’d rather be a slave here with you than free but lonely somewhere else.” He went back to reading his books. “Is it wrong to say that?”
“I don’t think so. I think he’s sincere.”
But here’s what I didn’t tell him. What I still couldn’t admit to myself. I was starting to feel something. Something impossible. Something dangerous.
By the end of April, we’d settled into a routine. In the morning, Josiah would help me with the preparations, then take me to breakfast. Afterwards, he’d return to the forge while I took care of the household accounts. In the afternoon, he’d return and we’d spend time together.
Sometimes I watched him work, fascinated by how he transformed iron into useful objects. Sometimes he read to me, and his reading improved significantly thanks to access to my father’s library and my private lessons. In the evenings we talked about everything: his childhood on another plantation, his mother who had been sold when he was ten, and his dreams of freedom that seemed unattainable.
And I talked about my mother, who died when I was born. About the accident that paralyzed me, about the feeling of being trapped in a body that didn’t work and in a society that didn’t want me. We were two outcasts who found comfort in each other’s company.
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