THIS RICH WOMAN HIRES A MAID WITHOUT KNOWING THAT IT IS HER OWN DAUGHTER
Awa took a deep breath that evening, alone in her room. She was 23 years old. She was neither fragile nor naïve. But in that house, something disturbed her. Not a threat, rather a sensation. As if the walls were watching her, or as if her footsteps were following an invisible trail. The days passed. Awa learned quickly.
She had that quiet way of doing things without making noise. She ironed Madame Kan’s silk scarves with almost religious patience. She knew her favorite teas, her reading habits, even her silences. The other servants liked her, discreet, kind, but there was something deeper in her, a gravity.
As if deep down, she carried a past heavier than her gestures allowed others to guess. Madame Kan began to notice that girl more than she would have liked. At first, it was little things, a way of smiling, of folding linen, of placing a plate down without sound, and then that look, that straight, calm, but overly familiar look.
She did not understand why this young girl annoyed her so much at times and moved her at others. She reminded her of someone. But who? One day, Awa was tasked with organizing the drawers in the living room, an old piece of furniture that no one had opened in months. While sorting papers, she found an old account notebook, postcards, and a torn photograph.
She put it back in place, but her finger brushed against a small piece of paper folded in four, yellowed by time. She hesitated to open it. In the end, she put it back in the drawer without a word. But something deep inside her had been awakened. For several nights in a row, she dreamed of water, of an immense river, of a basket floating, of hands letting go.
She woke up drenched in sweat, and every morning she went back to work as if nothing had happened. Maman Abé watched her in silence. She knew, but she waited. She prayed more often. One evening, while Awa was clearing the table, she stopped her gently. You look tired, Awa, are you all right? Yes, Maman Abé. Are you thinking of your family back home? I don’t know.
Sometimes, I tell myself that I have never really known who my family truly was. Maman Abé stopped. She did not answer. Then she simply said, “Sometimes family is not what we think, but God always ends up showing what is hidden.” Awa nodded, but she asked no questions. Not yet. Madame Kan, on her side, was beginning to feel different, irritable, tired for no reason.
She got annoyed more quickly, spoke less. She had the impression that something was changing in her house. She called in a doctor. He found nothing. She even had the house purified by an old woman who burned leaves and recited incantations. But nothing changed. Until the day when, while tidying a wardrobe in her own room, she found a small leather box she had not touched in years. She opened it without thinking.
Inside, a baby bonnet, a string bracelet, and a torn photograph. The memory of another time. She put everything back down with a quick gesture, but her heart was pounding. Why did Awa’s face always come back to her when she looked at that photograph? She told no one. But that night, she dreamed of a baby in her arms, of a cradle she was abandoning, and of a promise she had pretended to forget.
And meanwhile, Hawa in her windowless room held her necklace between her fingers. She did not know why, but she felt that something was drawing near, something important. The days became heavier, not because of the work. That, Awa did with almost invisible precision.
Sometimes, she had the impression that her name echoed in the silences as if it had already been spoken there long ago by someone she did not know. One Saturday morning, the cleaning woman, Jenabou, fell ill and was sent to rest. Madame Kan, who disliked having her schedule disrupted, ordered Hawa to take care of the private salon herself, that forbidden place where she received her privileged clients for beauty advice or discreet appointments.
The marble floor there was cold, the mirrors lined with gold trim, and the luxury perfumes were lined up like precious soldiers. Awa cleaned in silence, focused, when an unexpected client arrived without warning. A woman of a certain age, well dressed, gloved to the elbows, with a soft but confident voice.
“Is Kanny here?” she asked. “I’ll go get her, madam.” “No, wait. You there, are you new?” “Yes, madam. What is your name?” “Awa.” The woman paused. Her gaze lingered a second too long on Awa’s face. Awa, a pretty name. Where do you come from? From the village of Ségou. Ségou? murmured the lady, narrowing her eyes.
I know that region well. I went there a long time ago, a very long time ago. How long have you been living here? A few weeks. She smiled, but there was something worried in that smile. You remind me of someone I knew once. A beautiful woman, very proud, but very alone.
Before Awa could answer, Madame Kan entered the room, elegant in her midnight-blue tunic. “Oh Yandé, you’re early.” “I always do that when I feel the day will be long,” the woman replied with a smile. She briefly laid a hand on Kanny’s arm, then added, “By the way, I just spoke to your new girl. She is unusual.”
“She’s a village girl, discreet, clean. That is all that matters to me.” But Yandé remained silent for a moment, her gaze lost in Kan’s earrings. You know that the things we bury always end up growing back somewhere else, don’t you? Don’t start again, Yandé, sighed Madame Kan.
What is done is done. You judged me enough twenty years ago. I am not judging. I am observing that the air has changed in your house, and I am simply telling you to be careful. Awa heard all this from the other room without understanding. She did not yet know that the murmurs between those two women were speaking, without saying it, of a past she carried in her veins.
The following evening, she decided to write a letter to Maman Sira. It was not really a letter to send. There was no address, but rather a way of putting words down. Mother, I have the impression that I have arrived at the place you never wanted to name to me.
You raised me with kindness, but you never wanted to tell me where I really came from. Here, things are beautiful, but everything feels locked up. I feel as though I am walking on fragile ground, as if each step could bring something buried back to the surface. There is this woman. She is strong, impressive, but there is something in her.
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