I got back on my feet. I had my own place, a stable income, and solid footing. And then I met Chris three years ago. We recently tied the knot.
He had a daughter named Susan, 12 years old when we first met… 15 now. Chris and his ex-wife had adopted her when she was a baby. Her biological mother had left her at the hospital the day she was born.
Hearing that always dragged me back to the choice I’d made years earlier.
I felt something pull toward Susan from the very first afternoon I spent with her. Something I told myself was just tenderness, just the natural instinct of a woman who understood what it meant to grow up feeling like a question without an answer.
Her biological mother had left her at the hospital the day she was born.
She was the same age my daughter would have been. I poured everything I had into being good to her. I wanted to give Susan every bit of love I’d spent 15 years not being able to deliver.
I thought I understood why. I had no idea how completely right I was.
Susan came home a week ago with a DNA test kit from a biology class project. She set it on the kitchen table at dinner with that particular teenage energy.
“It’s not like I feel any less loved, and I know we’re not related. But this is going to be fun, guys!” she said, grinning at me and then at Chris. “And hey, maybe it’ll help me find my real parents someday. The teacher said this one gives results really fast, so we won’t even have to wait a week.”
“Maybe it’ll help me find my real parents someday.”
She said it casually, the way she’d learned to talk about her adoption.
“Sure, honey,” I said, and I told myself it was nothing.
Chris thought it was fun. He talked about his ancestry and made jokes about being descended from royalty, while Susan rolled her eyes and I laughed along with them.
We mailed the samples off and forgot about them.
The results had been mailed directly to Susan, and I hadn’t seen them yet. The day they arrived, something was wrong with her.
She ate dinner without saying much. She kept her eyes on her plate whenever I looked her way. Then she asked Chris if they could talk. Just the two of them.
Something was wrong with her.
I stayed in the kitchen and listened to the door close down the hall, followed by the low murmur of voices and then, clearly and unmistakably, Susan crying.
I didn’t understand what was going on.
Chris came out 20 minutes later holding a folded paper.
“Read this,” he said. He set the paper down in front of me. “The result is interesting. You’ll find it very interesting.”
I didn’t understand what was going on.
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