I’m 91, and for a long time I felt like I’d already died, I just hadn’t had the decency to lie down yet.
My husband’s been gone for decades.
Birthdays consisted of me, a cupcake, and the TV.
My kids moved away, started families, and slowly drifted off. At first, there were visits. Then calls. Then texts.
Then silence.
Birthdays consisted of me, a cupcake, and the TV. Holidays were frozen dinners and reruns. Most days it was just the hallway clock ticking and the house creaking like it was trying to talk to me.
That’s the kind of lonely that makes you feel see-through.
No one ever called for Jack.
Then Jack moved in next door.
He was 12. Too big for his age in that lanky way, hat always backward, skateboard glued to his hand.
I’d see him out front in the evenings. Up and down the sidewalk. Practicing tricks. Falling. Getting back up.
Other kids would get called in.
“Dinner!” Or “Homework!”
His house stayed dark most nights.
Doors opened. Porches lit up.
No one ever called for Jack.
His house stayed dark most nights. No car in the driveway. No lights in the windows.
At first, I told myself I wasn’t being nosy. Just observant. That lie worked until the night I heard him cry.
It was late. I woke up to this soft sound. Not TV. Not the pipes. Not a baby.
There it was again. Muffled, broken sobs.
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